Diagnosed Mortal #20 This is the last hurrah as I end this series. I reflect upon my experience writing these essays and think aloud about the things I think I will miss in being without a body. So it ends.... Of course I made it through the surgery in flying colors. All mended thanks to the miracle of modern medicine. I was mystified about the things that rose up in me and it makes more sense to me now how I would be examining those things in a much deeper manner since writi

Diagnosed Mortal #19 In this post I reflect on an important turning point in my life. Like a soldier's war story.... I was called up at age 50 and I answered. Astrology has taught me, long after the fact, that I was moved by celestial forces in this story. At around fifty years of age the asteroid Chiron passes over the exact spot it was stationed at a person's birth. The understanding of what Chiron represents lays down a bit of a navigational clue as to how a person would a

Diagnosed Mortal #16 Thoughts about the wandering peoples of the world and what it might mean if everyone is really homeless. When I wrote the essay for this post I was trying to understand what Jenkinson was getting at in our being orphans and homeless....uprooted from our sense of place. I never did quite follow what he was putting down personally in this regard that summer. Reading the essay now, it seems I fell into a kind of romantic hole in my trying to process the po

Diagnosed Mortal #18 In this episode I dive into an intensely compressed story of how I have been existing and navigating on frequencies most of my life. This essay was written long before I had written my book and as I read it now, I'm laughing. Did I really think in 2017 that this was such a trifling matter? Yes. Yes, I did. It wasn't until I wrote out my life in the long view in Different Ways did I begin to grasp the actual patterns my life was laying down around the th

Diagnosed Mortal #17 This is a particularly difficult bit of personal business that reared its head in unearthing what I wrote years ago. It is rather clear in reading it that I had more than a little resentment around things not working out in the town I initially swooned over and chose to move to at 50 years old. I see all this very differently now, seventeen years later. Now that I understand my nature better and what I actually came here to do. I was blind to the perfecti

Diagnosed Mortal #15 In this post I reflect upon art and its place in my life. I have come a long way in better understanding how art works in my life since this essay was written...I have since written my memoir, " Different Ways; Revealing the Feminine " and over the course of that project the subject of music and art in general was gone into deeply. And so I've grown. I haven't changed my mind about anything I wrote in the essay in 2017 but I feel clearer about what art do

Banner photo credit: Larry Mars Diagnosed Mortal #14 In this episode I delicately dip my toe into the subject of atonement. While as a culture we tend to not blame children for insensitivity, our transgressions when young do not disappear once acted out. They lie dormant and fester and it is cold comfort as an adult to shrug off memories of misdemeanors that will not let us be simply because we know our parents or friends would have forgiven us. We don't enter the world as hu

Diagnosed Mortal #13 This Blogcast examines what it is to want to be an adult and what it really takes to leave off childish things to...

Diagnosed Mortal #12 This post explores the different ways the light plays upon a human being when undeniable experiences strike without...

Art credit: Gregg Segal and his art project 7 Days of Garbage Diagnosed Mortal #11 This post is about owning choices, making reparations...

Diagnosed Mortal #10 This post is about the consequence of not talking about difficult things. In truth, talking about things not usually...

Diagnosed Mortal #9 Death and catastrophe; portals into exploring how one might attempt to become the best human being possible. My...

Diagnosed Mortal #8 This essay explores using the word lost when referring to a person who had died and just what that turn of phrase...

Diagnosed Mortal #7 This post is about how we avoid darkness and what that aversion and prejudice costs us in terms of our dying with...

"The radiance falls on all of us." ~Lidia Yuknavitch Diagnosed Mortal #6 I am one week into dead girl walking and I'm getting people...

Diagnosed Mortal #5 On this day, I wax poetic regarding what turned out to be a salad days redux for me at 40 years old. Who doesn't have...

Diagnosed Mortal #4 Regarding money...I laugh at this now but it took me an entire lifetime to get to the joke...and that was after many...

Shouldn't you be doing something for me right now? Diagnosed Mortal #3 How peculiar to be human beings and find ourselves in relationship...

Diagnosed Mortal #2 This post is concerned with stuff. ..What is to be done with it after we die? Millions of people are confronting...

Diagnosed Mortal #1 Years ago, before I even settled down seriously to write my memoir, I thought I would give myself a writing...