Was I ever really distanced from my Pop? It is hard to say. I wish I would have tried harder to get some answers from him when I had the chance. I was busy making a story in my head where we all live happily ever after. Most of my genetics, therefore my body, favors my father. There is definitely a connection there and in spirit. He felt familiar. I found him to be a sensitive man even though he had no skills to share that part of himself and, like me, I think all along he intended on being kind. People born in the twenties were not given, in general, to overt expressions of feelings. At this time of my life, I was not given to deep philosophical and spiritual sharing. In fact, I hadn't even made it to critical thinking! Expressing my true self was not something I had access to yet. Knowing Pop better in this life wouldn't have changed anything, I realize.
This audio file is about how events conspired for me to be synchronously reunited with my father when I rarely, consciously, ever thought about him.
Thank you for listening.
Different Ways: Landslide, Part One, Excerpts Chapter, pp.138-143
Music: It is probably pretty obvious by now what my thoughts are on other lives and access to them. When it comes to my Pop, my family and even some of my friends, I feel like I know them in this dimension and in others. We have met in the energetics of The Big Love. The edge of a paradigm is not a clear line but a fine one. That said, I've never lived a life like this one where I am so old and in a woman's body in a society that disrespects women and demands so much focus and intense interaction with so many distractions. This world is a piece of work and a powder keg. I'm in constant process with it. When this song came out I was, "Oh cool! Let's open our minds to consider this!" I was 17. Past lives was a parlor game. It is now 51 years later and I've seen some things, boy howdy. One does their best but one does get tired from time to time, though.
Thank you for joining me here. The memoir Different Ways: Revealing the Feminine can be purchased through my website using a link to Village Books at AlltheDifferentWays.com. There will soon be an eBook version available with an independent retailer. The e-book on Amazon is a bit of a mess but free if you are a Kindle member. Don't buy it. Parts are missing.
The BlogCast that outlines my intentions for this series of readings from my book, Different Ways, Revealing the Feminine can be found here in the post, Between the Lines.